Help I Need Some Help

How to cope with personal accidents?


Calling ambulance to a remote place after crushing arm two weeks ago. Did I have need to call 112 or should I have travelled by mysellf to emergency room in the middle at night? Having a copy of the ems form. Thanked ems personal when departed. Opioid pain relief in the ER. Next RTG time nineth of July. Constant pain woke up at two’o’clock. Night eating, now blood sugar in heaven.


Strange feeling came up I was in vain misusing ems. Wrote earlier here in Finnish I had the feeling I had a chance to put an end to my life instead missing that opportunity while I didn’t fall from the boat while shoring it. With one hand I wouldn’t have managed myself on dry land. But somehow I did to get on land, sitting there in the shore water quarter of hour how to get up. Last year a tick attack at the same area caused an antibiotic treatment. Borreliosis test was made on March. It was negative.

Treatment centered now on shoulder, now feeling elbow is also some sort of damged. After having recently so negative relations with women it was delighting to meet a very compassive elderly female nurse taking care of me. Waiting to see her next time.

Edit July 3, 2019

3 am, Elbow checked yesterday, no fracture, had to check it because of constant pain. Arcoxia prescription.

Edit July 6, 2019

First night in three weeks without pain interrupting sleep at 2.o.clock

🆙 Jul 13, 2019

Shoulder check up was on Tuesday, no need to surgery nor physio therapy. Constant pain prevails though. It was a weekend four weeks ago, on Saturday neighbor lady asked are you going to women? I replied just think about it the whole weekend!, she answered I’ll think about that! Then on Sunday guest house lady angrily shouted at me You’re burning my sauna!, when the sauna temperature reached 70 degrees. On Monday morning a female nurse at the emergency room commented You arrive from place X and there those drugs. I was sober and no drug test was taken by ems after I called 112 at midnight, I was so confused of that comment I told that last Tuesday to the ER senior PhD and he promised to me that he’ll talk with that female nurse. He told also to me not to pay too much attention to that comment. One guy told me I just made trouble in future care by women while reporting that comment to superiors.

One guy

Three women and three hits on one weekend. Am I too sensitive as a man to react on behaviors of those three women? One wanted to know where I’ll go, second suspected I’m a pyromaniac, third related me to drug use.

Talk vs Stalk

11.06.2019 07.40

Stalking boy’s genitals
Sexual stalking by grandmother


Grandson ‘vanished’ during village police visit

Difficulty talking with people versus stalking them? Question activated with childhood memories after neighbor woman accused me ‘a crooked stalker’ at the house meeting and the female city welfare chief came to tell me at a mall “stop stalking”.

Do I talk , do I stalk?

Who talked and stalked when I was young?

Wanting to talk together with these two women so rude towards me, but they certainly will rule out such a meeting so I talk with a male therapeutist to whom third woman, a city servant, asked me to go when I went to talk to her my citizen feedback. Then there’s fourth woman, a newspaper reporter, who greeted me last week on the street and I now don’t have any idea what to talk with her. She knows too much of my intercourses with those three women mentioned above. Plus my survivor story and this blog.

Talk or stalk?

Punished and vanished by women?

Walk away or talk again?

Who’s silent today and who’s loud?

Naisten kälätystarpeistoa älköön yksikään mies kahlitko, taikka mies on leimattu mies?

No matter where you look at from, survister has a problem which won’t ever be settled. Next year there will be another Women’s Day and Mother’s Day. And some #metoos too. Ten years ago city home service supervisor told me ‘it’s unfortunate, but what men do?”, when I told her about my grandma. That notion I haven’t forgotten, largely because that woman never apologied her saying, instead in written memo admitted she only wished all good for man’s life.

Life is.

10.14 am OH MY GOD!

Left for town, there came a male City servant , who challenged my today’s survivor mission . Had to return back home to talk to the walls!!

Lots of talking going on, this is the post number 260

This ain’t the best way to react but determined to stay inside four walls rest of this day.

Photo by Marius Venter on Pexels

OMG 10 pm,

it actualisized, all the day after noon at home inside walls and on the net:

Edit 18.06.2019

See the comments on post

Horr or Scoop

Take a new way

of approach cause with the current you won’t get far. No one knows how it works, but at this time it doesn’t matter. pioneer mood!

You made a promise for yourself. By keeping it and sticking with your plans you are good rate on a way to quite a success.

You save quite a mount if you make some things by yourself. Jobs of professionals are separate, but honestly it’s high time for you to start appreciate your own skills.

Someone blames you on unimportant decoration and useless speeches. Give some palt to those concentrate indeed on your own performance.

This and that comes into your mind. Put the upcoming thoughts on paper, but don’t interrupt otherwise your doings….