Ceasefire(conditional)

Grandma neighbor got silent(or not).

It took the whole year for me to cope with her aggressiveness, her verbal stalker insult in July, which led me to discuss the matter, lähisuhdeväkivaltauhkatilanne, with the house chairman and former and current house managers, female represent of the Ensi ja turvakotien liitto, both male doctor and female nurses on the health sector. No police contact involved this year as earlier years. I’m traumatized over this section of my life in which an unrelated elderly neighbor woman resurrected my childhood grandma verbal sexual abuse PTSD. How can I stay quiet as a man over this story while having social contacts with other people? Being quiet hurts but more hurts if I open my mouth.

It was also very confusing, while i met month ago with a First and Safety Home Society represent on a stand, told her I also should have escaped to the safety house, she stayed to listen my story, so she said to me, to a man, that I have to take account that she’s sick. seriously? how come did she know she’s sick?. an excuse to me to calm down because im a man and neighbor woman sick?seriously? Blame it on a man whatever the situation? Like..

Jan 7, 2021 Feelings rolling here and there, staying at home while following covid 19 restrictions. So often thoughts go back to memories. all woken up by the neighbor lady 80years. it was july i said to her one thing related to the house management, she replied :”what a shame”. And shut her door. Not a word since, only wordless passesby. completely different feeling when the former female house manager came to greet me wednesday in a food store and we chatted this and that few minutes. Bombed the house chairman with my opinions after the house meeting few months ago, told him about my grandma, since then been quiet and i have a few questions to him related to the house daily routine. but better to numb for now, he has now showed me very clearly on who’s side he stands.

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